That's the problem yeah? He always tries to send me back to my Mum, when he's getting ready to die, and he knows he can't guarantee my safety at all. Or even a hint of it. And I've run back to him, every single time.
[Gestures to a park bench, and swings her legs sitting on it, and eating ice cream, still looking up.] He doesn't have his world anymore. He watched it burn. First date he ever took me to was the end of Earth. He was trying to be impressive and show off. It was a big party, weirdly enough. All these dignitaries and intergalactic ambassadors, all gathered 'round to watch it go and pay it respect. Not my cup o' tea, but he didn't know me that well back then. And he's awful at actually hitting his mark. He took me back to my Mum and she slapped him, because we were a year late. Time machine, still off by a year. My ex-boyfriend got dragged in for police questioning four times because people thought he'd kill me. And for me, it'd only been a couple o' days.
[A shrug, and she looks sideways at Aru.] But his planet isn't like Earth. It was destroyed in a time war. All his people with it. There's no world left for him. He hangs about Earth most, and he looks human enough, you'd have to really know he wasn't or get in deep with him to know better, yeah? But there's no bridging to his world, he doesn't have one left. He doesn't have anyone. [Noms her ice cream.] Just me.
And me...
My Dad died when I was just a baby. Freak car accident. The kind of thing that just happens in life. But he died alone, and it really messed up my Mum, made her a lot angrier and difficult to live with. I begged the Doctor to let me go back and hold his hand, so he wouldn't die alone. It's a really risky thing, that. Changing your personal timeline. I nearly destroyed the universe. Did create a paradox until my Dad fixed it by sacrificing himself.
One time we wound up in another universe. Accidental. The TARDIS, his ship, is almost completely bound to his universe, she can't reach any others. But my Dad was alive there, and I was never born. That version of my Dad found a way to my version of Earth. The Doctor hooked up my parents, sent them back to my Dad's universe, and it should have been happily ever after, right? But I wouldn't go.
He doesn't have to do anything for me. Just let me be by his side. I don't want him to try to live human with me and my family, even though I know that's what he wants for me, and I don't want to try to replace his entire planet, because I know I can't. And yeah, it's like... dog years to him. Not even 1/10th of his life. And that's if I don't die or age too much to keep up. And we've talked about it. [Back to looking at the sky. And quietly.] But I'd still rather die by his side, than live in another universe, or back on any version of Earth, or in any galaxy, anywhere, and just try to survive without him. I know it's selfish, I know it hurts everyone around me. My Mum's begged me not to go every time. And when it was just her and me, I couldn't do it to her, but now she's got my Dad, and the Doctor just has me. But more than that... that's me. I can't live the lie of pretending I'm fine and doing my best without him. I've tried. He asked me to live without him ohhh, a lot now. [Sad smile and shakes head.] And it's nevar gonna happen. He forgets, all this is borrowed time anyway. I'd've died the first night we met if he hadn't saved my life. So everything now? Is just bonus.
[Headpats Aru and goes to throw her trash out.] Thanks for the help with the lobsters, and remember to give me a call, yeah? Not every day you get to make friends with a demi-goddess.
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That's the problem yeah? He always tries to send me back to my Mum, when he's getting ready to die, and he knows he can't guarantee my safety at all. Or even a hint of it. And I've run back to him, every single time.
[Gestures to a park bench, and swings her legs sitting on it, and eating ice cream, still looking up.] He doesn't have his world anymore. He watched it burn. First date he ever took me to was the end of Earth. He was trying to be impressive and show off. It was a big party, weirdly enough. All these dignitaries and intergalactic ambassadors, all gathered 'round to watch it go and pay it respect. Not my cup o' tea, but he didn't know me that well back then. And he's awful at actually hitting his mark. He took me back to my Mum and she slapped him, because we were a year late. Time machine, still off by a year. My ex-boyfriend got dragged in for police questioning four times because people thought he'd kill me. And for me, it'd only been a couple o' days.
[A shrug, and she looks sideways at Aru.] But his planet isn't like Earth. It was destroyed in a time war. All his people with it. There's no world left for him. He hangs about Earth most, and he looks human enough, you'd have to really know he wasn't or get in deep with him to know better, yeah? But there's no bridging to his world, he doesn't have one left. He doesn't have anyone. [Noms her ice cream.] Just me.
And me...
My Dad died when I was just a baby. Freak car accident. The kind of thing that just happens in life. But he died alone, and it really messed up my Mum, made her a lot angrier and difficult to live with. I begged the Doctor to let me go back and hold his hand, so he wouldn't die alone. It's a really risky thing, that. Changing your personal timeline. I nearly destroyed the universe. Did create a paradox until my Dad fixed it by sacrificing himself.
One time we wound up in another universe. Accidental. The TARDIS, his ship, is almost completely bound to his universe, she can't reach any others. But my Dad was alive there, and I was never born. That version of my Dad found a way to my version of Earth. The Doctor hooked up my parents, sent them back to my Dad's universe, and it should have been happily ever after, right? But I wouldn't go.
He doesn't have to do anything for me. Just let me be by his side. I don't want him to try to live human with me and my family, even though I know that's what he wants for me, and I don't want to try to replace his entire planet, because I know I can't. And yeah, it's like... dog years to him. Not even 1/10th of his life. And that's if I don't die or age too much to keep up. And we've talked about it. [Back to looking at the sky. And quietly.] But I'd still rather die by his side, than live in another universe, or back on any version of Earth, or in any galaxy, anywhere, and just try to survive without him. I know it's selfish, I know it hurts everyone around me. My Mum's begged me not to go every time. And when it was just her and me, I couldn't do it to her, but now she's got my Dad, and the Doctor just has me. But more than that... that's me. I can't live the lie of pretending I'm fine and doing my best without him. I've tried. He asked me to live without him ohhh, a lot now. [Sad smile and shakes head.] And it's nevar gonna happen. He forgets, all this is borrowed time anyway. I'd've died the first night we met if he hadn't saved my life. So everything now? Is just bonus.
[Headpats Aru and goes to throw her trash out.] Thanks for the help with the lobsters, and remember to give me a call, yeah? Not every day you get to make friends with a demi-goddess.