[apologies haven't been much help up until now -- appreciated, yes, but always undercut with the awareness that nobody else can understand. they don't know what it feels like, to hear yourself, see yourself, and not be able to do anything about what you say or do. to feel that helpless and trapped.
peter does. he does, and he's wearing the effects of it, on his face, in his eyes, the same way will is, and it probably makes will the worst sort of selfish to feel relief. he's so, so tired of being alone.
his whole body flinches when he's touched, the small point of contact almost making him jerk away. but he doesn't. he swallows tightly and looks up at peter, shoulders slack in that guilty, shameful relief.]
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peter does. he does, and he's wearing the effects of it, on his face, in his eyes, the same way will is, and it probably makes will the worst sort of selfish to feel relief. he's so, so tired of being alone.
his whole body flinches when he's touched, the small point of contact almost making him jerk away. but he doesn't. he swallows tightly and looks up at peter, shoulders slack in that guilty, shameful relief.]
I'm sorry too.