[it's what isn't said that gets to him. what tony so clearly skirts around saying. if they'd all made it through to the other side, then he's sure that he would have said as much, plain and simple. but he didn't, and that can only mean one thing. the very thing that he's spent these past few months trying his best to avoid learning about.
his gaze slips down to the floor as the words sink in, and for a long while, peter ends up just staring at nothing. he doesn't notice as his breathing picks up. as he edges closer and closer towards an outright panic attack. all he can focus on is the fact that tony didn't say they were all okay. that he was too finite with those last words.
is this what beck was trying to tell him?]
...I can't do this.
[his words are quiet, shaky, his shoulders slumped in defeat. he isn't sure that he'll ever be ready to hear the full truth. but right now, with tony having only just arrived, he really isn't ready for this.
when he does finally manage to look up again, there's an entirely forced look on his face. a smile that's completely at odds with how close to breaking down he is. but he's doing everything he can to hold it together. because again, tony has just arrived, and peter really isn't his problem to deal with.]
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his gaze slips down to the floor as the words sink in, and for a long while, peter ends up just staring at nothing. he doesn't notice as his breathing picks up. as he edges closer and closer towards an outright panic attack. all he can focus on is the fact that tony didn't say they were all okay. that he was too finite with those last words.
is this what beck was trying to tell him?]
...I can't do this.
[his words are quiet, shaky, his shoulders slumped in defeat. he isn't sure that he'll ever be ready to hear the full truth. but right now, with tony having only just arrived, he really isn't ready for this.
when he does finally manage to look up again, there's an entirely forced look on his face. a smile that's completely at odds with how close to breaking down he is. but he's doing everything he can to hold it together. because again, tony has just arrived, and peter really isn't his problem to deal with.]
I- I should go. I'm sorry.