She does - or at least, she knows about the things that he's experienced, back in Yokohama. The admission of him saying that he isn't a very good person makes her almost want to cry, but she keeps those thoughts down, buried behind the proverbial curtains she puts up.
He doesn't have to know.
This much... she can hide, she's sure.
Her fingers curl in on itself, nails digging into the skin. It's not enough to draw blood, but it's definitely enough to show how tense she is about just hearing this. Enough that after he finishes talking, gives her a chance to speak, that... the smallest bit of anger that was bubbling up just bursts. ]
Don't say that about yourself. Don't say that you're not a good person.
[ Stop it. Stop it. Stop it. She doesn't want to hear it, as someone who has always seen herself as dark. Who has never seen herself as a good person, in spite of many people, multiple times saying that she is, that she's kind.
And she wholeheartedly wants to believe in those words.
But... it's hard.
The words he says reminds her of a conversation from last year.
"...Dazai-san saved me. He didn't teach me to kill people, or make me kill people. I never--
Not before here, anyway."
She takes a deep breath. If he says that asking her to stay is being selfish, then... isn't she allowed to be selfish in return? But hearing him say that his healing ability isn't the same, well... there has to be an explanation to it. It might have something to do with this world.
She'd have to do research on that, at some point. ]
...Ah, that's right. The person that kept the ability in check and allowed you to control it a lot easier isn't here.
[ That's a conversation that she had with another Atsushi, in another place.
Fukuzawa isn't here.
But this conversation is different; things have changed since the last time she spoke about this. She can- ]
If you want to try, I want to help. I have... experience, dealing with the tiger. And - if you need to deal with full moons, for whatever reason, I can stay with you and hold your hand the whole time.
Although if you're not okay with that, I have alternative options.
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She does - or at least, she knows about the things that he's experienced, back in Yokohama. The admission of him saying that he isn't a very good person makes her almost want to cry, but she keeps those thoughts down, buried behind the proverbial curtains she puts up.
He doesn't have to know.
This much... she can hide, she's sure.
Her fingers curl in on itself, nails digging into the skin. It's not enough to draw blood, but it's definitely enough to show how tense she is about just hearing this. Enough that after he finishes talking, gives her a chance to speak, that... the smallest bit of anger that was bubbling up just bursts. ]
Don't say that about yourself. Don't say that you're not a good person.
[ Stop it. Stop it. Stop it. She doesn't want to hear it, as someone who has always seen herself as dark. Who has never seen herself as a good person, in spite of many people, multiple times saying that she is, that she's kind.
And she wholeheartedly wants to believe in those words.
But... it's hard.
The words he says reminds her of a conversation from last year.
"...Dazai-san saved me. He didn't teach me to kill people, or make me kill people. I never--
Not before here, anyway."
She takes a deep breath. If he says that asking her to stay is being selfish, then... isn't she allowed to be selfish in return? But hearing him say that his healing ability isn't the same, well... there has to be an explanation to it. It might have something to do with this world.
She'd have to do research on that, at some point. ]
...Ah, that's right. The person that kept the ability in check and allowed you to control it a lot easier isn't here.
[ That's a conversation that she had with another Atsushi, in another place.
Fukuzawa isn't here.
But this conversation is different; things have changed since the last time she spoke about this. She can- ]
If you want to try, I want to help. I have... experience, dealing with the tiger. And - if you need to deal with full moons, for whatever reason, I can stay with you and hold your hand the whole time.
Although if you're not okay with that, I have alternative options.