The question seems silly, in the moment, but only because Neil has years of space from Welton and this new strange moment. There is a part of him, like sleeping for three days and being in England, that just expects to wake up. Maybe he will. Maybe he won't. He's trying not to think about won't.
He runs a thumb nail under that of his opposite middle finger, a bit of a fidget that turns into contemplative silence. Well, this already isn't just the ghost story any more, isn't it. As soon as he made it the warning, it stopped being just a ghost story.
"No, a day or two later, I killed myself," he says with a sort of distant matter-of-factness that comes with the distance of time--and with recently coming to learn a couple of things about himself, sort of. "Except, when I did, I went somewhere else. And I've been...living there, I guess. I've been there for the last few years. And then, now, there's the Deer. But I didn't see the ghost this time."
He looks at the man, with his questions and his quiet and his furrowed brows. "So I think the ghost was just warning me that I was about to make a choice that I couldn't take back."
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The question seems silly, in the moment, but only because Neil has years of space from Welton and this new strange moment. There is a part of him, like sleeping for three days and being in England, that just expects to wake up. Maybe he will. Maybe he won't. He's trying not to think about won't.
He runs a thumb nail under that of his opposite middle finger, a bit of a fidget that turns into contemplative silence. Well, this already isn't just the ghost story any more, isn't it. As soon as he made it the warning, it stopped being just a ghost story.
"No, a day or two later, I killed myself," he says with a sort of distant matter-of-factness that comes with the distance of time--and with recently coming to learn a couple of things about himself, sort of. "Except, when I did, I went somewhere else. And I've been...living there, I guess. I've been there for the last few years. And then, now, there's the Deer. But I didn't see the ghost this time."
He looks at the man, with his questions and his quiet and his furrowed brows. "So I think the ghost was just warning me that I was about to make a choice that I couldn't take back."